Letting people in

I finally did what i never wanted to do. I finally let 2 people who know me the best, in my life. And i was scared, like really scared.

One of them i wasnt bothered about, he knew how much kieran had taken over my life and he was fully aware of me and dan. But, then i let dan look into my blog. He broke me, he literally broke me because for once i was all hyped up about him and not kieran, but then he vanished, he went and i was alone... Again.

For the past 3 months or longer actually my blogs are about him, they are about my friends reactions, us breaking up and making up and then me being left a little broken.

Letting dan in was the worst and best thing I've ever done. Because now, he can stalk this blog and know all my shit, but then again, it wasn't just him.  I fucked up aswell, in my other blog i openly admitted what i did was wrong and that i picked Kieran over the best relationship ever.

I do care about dan, i do. I also care about kieran a lot aswell, and this is where i start to get confused. I put myself on a boy dan for a reason, i just need to remember it.

Bleughhh!

Mwah

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