Yeah so basically my life is a mess. I keep having thoughts... Bad thoughts and i know its going to happen one day. Im trying so hard to be happy, but i really just want to cry every time i have a chance. It seems like my life is a series of ups and downs. I just cant be bothered with social occasions. Im loosing my friends but i cant help it. Carlisle college is to blame but its what i wanted. I wanted to start a fresh so why am i still hanging on to the past?
It was lisas on friday, once again ny night got ruined because someone couldn't keep their drink down and anna got stuck with them. I just want to sit down and scream and tell someone everything. Maybe i need to do this. I know im just having a down moment and im under pressure. But why doesnt anyone understand? I understand everyone else. One thing though. Im proud of myself. Im proud because i went into a room full of people ive been avoiding for so ling and spoke to them. For a tiny while i felt like the od anna.
Ill do another post soon, sorry i havnt been active. Ive just been feeling blehh.
Keep smiling guys.
Mwah
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