"Oh anna, why didnt you say anything?" "its okay, im here for you" bullshit. Bullshit bullshit bullshit.
Dont you even think about trying to make me feel bad. No. I dont want to talk. I dont want to cimmunicate with anyone other then the people i live with. No. I dont want a night out because that wont solve anything.
You werent here for me when i needed you. So dont even think popping up now for a fucking catch up is going to solve this. Dont even think trying to talk to me when you can clearly fucking see thatbi dont want to speak. And most importantly, dont even think about ever bringing up my ex. Ever.
I had no one. 0 people. I was so lonely and i spent nearly all my 6 weeks alone. So now is not the time to try and make friends with me again. I texted my so called fucking friends so many times. I texted everyone asking for a meet up. What was i suppose to do? Text you saying "hi i feel like dying today so fancy a coffee?"
But this isnt about my friends not being there for me. This is about my friends thinking shit anna really isnt okay and we should helo her. No. I have dan and karl who are the most amazing boys ever. 2 friends are worth so much more than fucking cunts of my old friends. It was karl who came through and hugged me when i was crying. It was dan who convinced me to go to the doctors. But yous, yous convinced me that i had made a mistake. That i was worthless and that i had no friends. Maybe i was worthless and had no friends, maybe thatsbwhat you thought. But i knew better. I knew thatbi meant something to someone. I knew that i was going to pull round.
This goes out to everyone who lied in my leavers book. Everyone who said they would keep in touch and everyone who said they would stick by me. This goes to the friends to said drunken promises but i always kept mine, my bestfriends who slowly faded away. To the bullys and to everyone who doubted me. Tell me again thats im not worth it, i dare you.
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