Moving on

Over these past few weeks I've been crying and blogging a lot, but ive also been thinking.

I love my two ex's, so very much. I love kieran as much as i did the first time i spoke to him and i love dan as much the same as the first time i kissed him.

Thats okay.

Its okay to still love them. Whats not okaybis for them to affect me as much as they have. But have they? Have they personally affected me? Honestly, no. I need to say goodbye to them. God i need to be me again.

Here goes.

Kieran. My wonderful snapchatting friend! You know how much i love you. How much you have made me well me. I know you know deep down that you never meant to hurt me. All you wanted as fun. Im so sorry for being over protected and asking silly questions. Im sorry for the fact i love you as much as i do. Because i know you dont love me as much. You do love me, i know you do. I know deep down that you do have some sort of feelings towards me. I should hate you. I really should. The point of this is for me to stop feeling so bad about the whole situation. You were my first love, always and forever. I have no regrets about that.

Dan. I hope you read this, i think you will. I really hope so. I need you to know thatbi love you. As much as yesterday but more than tomorrow. I need to move on, i need to find a person who makes me happy. At one point i thought that was you. It wasnt. I want you to be happy as much as i want to be happy. We will never work, i know this. If you didnt hate me you would have cared for me and about me. Im ready and strong enough to move on. I just want to be anna again dan. Thats all.