Lets just face the facts and say it. Whatever i do, whoever im with I'll always think of kieran. Hes done it again, hes let himself back in and I've welcomed him with open arms, silly Anna.
Jacks out of the question, I've basically forgotten about him to be honest. Kind of. Its all about dan and kieran now, why cant i just have both??!
Things would be easier if my anxiety and everything was better, what it isnt. My anxiety is telling me what to do and how i should do it. Its taking more energy and will to make it stop. But it never really stops, i just mute the sound for a while but its always back. I love my life i just hate myself and sometimes because cant understand what im going through. They dont get my pain and my anger towards myself. I need my friends so much right now but i have none if them. Not one of them has text me asking how i am, they promised me to keeo in touch but they lied. I feel so left out and like everyone has forgotten about me.
How can i love others when im in destruction mode?
Mwah
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