Why anxiety sucks

So I'm sat here, on my bed, panicking. Panicking that I've wrecked everything because of some small misunderstanding. This right here is anxiety at its worse. I feel sick, my nose gets stuffy, my hands get cold but everything else gets hot and this sense of bad comes over me.

I need reassuring, I need answers to all my questions. I can't have people blanking me when it is this important. What have I done? Does he hate me? How can I make this better? I have multiple questions wishing around my head, begging for answers when I can't do it. I can't answer all the questions, in question.

I loose myself, i loose all control over my mind and body. My brain thinks it's under attack, when I'm okay. People think I make small thinks bigger, think I'm needy, annoying and persistent. Truth is, I hate being them things. I just need answers to move on to the next annoying question.

So if anyone I know is reading this, please don't think I'm being annoying, I mean sometimes I can be really annoying but that's because I want to be. I can't help this sort of annoyance. Please try and reply back, please try and just keep in mind that if we have a argument, I will panic, no matter what. I will think that this is the worst thing ever and that there is so light at the end of the tunnel.

I am sorry, I am.